I commend anyone who can publicly share their battles and Cara Delevingne recently spoke candidly and in detail about her battle with depression and self-harm.
Devingne revealed to Vogue magazine that the emotional torment and “wave of self-hatred” she previously experienced is a huge part of who she is.
She explained, “This is something I haven’t been open about, but it’s a huge part of who I am. All of a sudden I was hit with a massive wave of depression and anxiety and self-hatred, where the feelings were so painful that I would slam my head against a tree to try to knock myself out. I never cut, but I’d scratch myself to the point of bleeding. I just wanted to dematerialize and have someone sweep me away.”
The star – who plays Margot in the anticipated movie adaptation of John Green’s Paper Towns – explained that she was put on “stronger stuff than Prozac”.
“I thought that if I wanted to act, I’d need to finish school, but I got so I couldn’t wake up in the morning,” she reflected. The worst thing was that I knew I was a lucky girl, and the fact that you would rather be dead… you just feel so guilty for those feelings, and it’s this vicious circle. Like, how dare I feel that way? So you just attack yourself some more.”
It is something that she still deals with. “It’s like, if anything is good for too long, I prefer to ruin it.”
Mental illness has such a stigma and it is awesome of her to share her story. Hopefully she inspires others!